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That stool.

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Let me give you some background. I have a problem with wanting things I can’t or shouldn’t have. The more forbidden the more I seem to want it. It has always been like this and it seems this will always be the case. I don’t remember all the details clearly…things like the exact date or time. I know it must have been fall because we had just gotten back from church and it was early evening but it was already dark out. I was in love with the boy next door since the day I moved into our new home. He was in high school and I was in 8th grade. He had a mean streak and I was naive and polite. Match made in heaven? Well I liked to believe that was true back then…He seemed to want silly ol me, and at my own hindrance I believed I was the one who could change the high school bad boy.

 

We parked in the garage and you were playing basketball in your back yard. You heard my father send me to the store and quickly handed me a note. On my way to the store I opened the note and to this day (at age 22) I still remember exactly what it said:

Sneak out.

meet me at my back door at 10.

I love you vee.

My stomach was on permanent spin cycle. All the way to the store and back I fought with myself. The smart half of my brain said “don’t do it, you’ll get caught and punished” and every other fiber in my body was telling me ” just do it, if you don’t do it now you won’t ever have this chance again” you know…typical teenage hormone problems.

Later that night I took the stool that was usually left in our back porch and while there was still noise going on (from the chaos of four kids getting ready for bed) and stuck it through my bedroom window and dropped it to the sidewalk and waited for everyone to settle in for the night. When everyone was settled in bed I slowly and noiselessly climbed out of my window and onto the stool that stood waiting to lead me to what I thought was going to be the best night of my life. I walked all the way out of my yard and into yours; all along my heart thumping, my mind racing, each step drawing me closer to you. I lifted my hand to knock on your door, and with one swift movement your hand grabbed mine and pulled me in the already opened door. You pulled me into your warm embrace and I know you could tell how nervous I was. Next thing I knew we were up against the wall and suddenly my nerves fell to the floor and draped around me like a freshly fallen skirt. I threw caution to the wind and let you kiss me and for the first time I felt like I mattered. To this day I don’t know if it was seconds…minutes…hours…lifetimes…that passed.

The one thing I’m sure of  is you didn’t walk me home…or out of your yard…or even out of your door.

With the hard boom of your door closing behind me, the wind suddenly hit me in a different way. The short walk to my window was so different this time around. I stepped back on that stool that was once my sweet escape and I loathed it. I climbed back in and reached out to bring the stool back in; to erase all the evidence that this night even happened and as fate would have it at that very moment my step mom peered her ugly head out of her bedroom window to smoke her cigarette and saw the stool outside my window.

I was caught.

The next day as after my father berated me and told me what the consequences of my action were to be, he asked me:

was it worth it?

I’m still ashamed to say no.

cause you don’t feel pretty you just feel used

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THE LUCKY ONE

New to town with a made up name in the angel city,
Chasing fortune and fame.
And the camera flashes, make it look like a dream.
You had it figured out since you were in school.
Everybody loves pretty, everybody loves cool.
So overnight you look like a sixties’ queen.

Another name goes up in lights, like diamonds in the sky.

And they’ll tell you now, you’re the lucky one.
Yeah, they’ll tell you now, you’re the lucky one.
But can you tell me now, you’re the lucky one.

Now it’s big black cars, and Riviera views,
And your lover in the foyer doesn’t even know you
And your secrets end up splashed on the news front page.

And they tell you that you’re lucky.
But you’re so confused,
Cause you don’t feel pretty, you just feel used.
And all the young things line up to take your place.

Another name goes up in lights. You wonder if you’ll make it out alive.
{ From: http://www.elyrics.net }

And they’ll tell you now, you’re the lucky one.
Yeah, they’ll tell you now, you’re the lucky one.
Can you tell me now, you’re the lucky one, oh, oh, oh.

It was a few years later, I showed up here.
And they still tell the legend of how you disappeared,
How you took the money and your dignity, and got the hell out.
They say you bought a bunch of land somewhere,
Chose the Rose Garden over Madison Square,
And it took some time, but I understand it now.

‘Cause now my name is up in lights, but I think you got it right,

Let me tell you now, you’re the lucky one.
Let me tell you now, you’re the lucky one.
Let me tell you now, you’re the lucky one, oh, oh, oh.

And they’ll tell you now, you’re the lucky one.
Yeah, they’ll tell you now, you’re the lucky one.
And they’ll tell you now, you’re the lucky one, oh, oh, oh.
Oh, whoa, oh, oh.

All roads they lead me here…

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THE LAST TIME

[Gary Lightbody:]
Found myself at your door,
Just like all those times before,
I’m not sure how I got there,
All roads they lead me here.

I imagine you are home,
In your room, all alone,
And you open your eyes into mine,
And everything feels better,

[Both:]
Right before your eyes,
I’m breaking, no past
No reasons why,
Just you and me.

This is the last time I’m asking you this,
Put my name at the top of your list,
This is the last time I’m asking you why,
You break my heart in the blink of an eye, eye, eye.

[Taylor Swift:]
You find yourself at my door,
Just like all those times before,
You wear your best apology,
But I was there to watch you leave,

And all the times I let you in,
Just for you to go again,
Disappear when you come back,
Everything is better.

[Both:]
Right before your eyes,
I’m aching, run fast
Nowhere to hide,
Just you and me…

This is the last time I’m asking you this,
Put my name at the top of your list,
This is the last time I’m asking you why,
You break my heart in the blink of an eye, eye, eye…

This is the last time you tell me I’ve got it wrong,
This is the last time I say it’s been you all along,
This is the last time I let you in my door,
This is the last time, I won’t hurt you anymore.

Oh, oh, oh,

This is the last time I’m asking you this,
Put my name at the top of your list,
This is the last time I’m asking you why,
You break my heart in the blink of an eye.

This is the last time I’m asking you this (this is the last time I’m asking you this)
Put my name at the top of your list (put my name on the top of your list)
This is the last time I’m asking you why (this is the last time I’m asking you why)
You break my heart in the blink of an eye (You break my heart…)

[x4]
This is the last time I’m asking you,
Last time I’m asking you,
Last time I’m asking you this…

That magic’s not here no more

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ALL TOO WELL

I walked through the door with you, the air was cold
But something about it felt like home somehow
And I left my scarf there at your sister’s house
And you still got it in your drawer, even now

Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide-eyed gaze
We’re singing in the car getting lost upstate
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place
And I can picture it after all these days

And I know it’s long gone
And that magic’s not here no more
And I might be okay
But I’m not fine at all

‘Cause there we are again, on that little town street
You almost ran the red ’cause you were looking over me
Wind in my hair, I was there, I remember it all too well

Photo album on the counter, your cheeks were turning red
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-size bed
Your mother’s telling stories about you on the tee ball team
You tell me about your past, thinking your future was me

And I know it’s long gone
And there’s nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough
To forget why I needed to

‘Cause there we are again, in the middle of the night
We’re dancing around the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there, I remember it all too well

And maybe we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece ’til you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well

And you call me up again just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I’m a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
‘Cause I remember it all, all, all too well

Time won’t fly, it’s like I’m paralyzed by it
I’d like to be my old self again, but I’m still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone

But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
‘Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me
You can’t get rid of it ’cause you remember it all too well, yeah

‘Cause there we are again, when I loved you so
Back before you lost the one real thing you’ve ever known
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all
Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

Every time I don’t, I almost do

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I ALMOST DO BY: TAYLOR SWIFT

I bet this time of night you’re still up
I bet you’re tired from a long hard week
I bet you’re sitting in your chair by the window
Looking out at the city
And I bet sometimes you wonder about me

And I just want to tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that every time I don’t
I almost do
I almost do

I bet you think I either moved on or hate you
‘Cause each time you reach out there’s no reply
I bet it never ever occurred to you that I can’t say hello to you
And risk another goodbye

And I just want to tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that every time I don’t
I almost do
I almost do

Oh we made quite a mess, babe
It’s probably better off this way
And I confess, baby
In my dreams you’re touching my face
And asking me if I want to try again with you
And I almost do

And I just want to tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that every time I don’t
I almost do
I almost do

I bet this time of night you’re still up
I bet you’re tired from a long hard week
I bet you’re sitting in your chair by the window looking out at the city
And I hope sometimes you wonder about me

Odds & Ends

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So I pretty much wanted to share 2 things with you guys today. One is an idea and the other a review.

 

So as of November 1st Albert and I have been together for 4 years and married for 3. Yesterday I thought it would be nice if we started writing to each other every day in a journal, and in exactly one year (on our next anniversary) we would exchange them. So we went ahead and started. I would have liked to use a cute little journal but since finances are a little tight right now, we just decided to use a notebook. Its fine though, because at least now I can decorate it the way I like right? eh. whatever. Its what’s on the inside that counts (quite literally in this scenario lol) I hope we keep up with these, because it will be very nice to see how we relate to each other over the year, and because no relationship is perfect we’ll be able to see the ups AND the downs and see how we got through things.

 

ANNNNNNYYYYYYwhoooooooo

 

my next point was to give you guys a review.

Now I don’t know how many of you are Taylor Swift Fans but THIS GIRL ISSSSSS!

Her new album Red is UHHHMAZZZINNGGGGGG. Its one of those albums that pretty much the entire thing is great. I love being able to buy a cd and have the ENTIRE thing be great and if you ask me, now a days that’s a rare find.

ok well…that is all. Go buy her new album. You won’t be sorry.

ciao!